To More Is Given Much Is Required

Think of how fair God is?

Lately, I just want to stop writing. Stop writing at all. I'm a bit afraid of what kind of influence I am giving to the 'few' who are reading the stuff I shared. And because everything I shared are some sort or kinda of a parable, people can just fit in any 'reality' they can think of.

Have you ever felt the tug of a purpose? Like, you just need to do it, whatever physical or emotional or mental discomfort 😬 it might give you, unless of course you want to wrestle with God and be restless in your spirit. Really, it's a stretching exercise of 'finding rest in God alone' and trusting He authored the outcome of your obedience.

[Don't you wonder what Elijah did with his life when he hid for more than 3-years. Or what David did when he was hiding in caves. Or Joseph when he was on chains? ]

However, my fear of 'my influence' does not really root from God's Kingdom. It was just my flesh screaming to be away from the pressure of being perfect. That pressure is really coming from the flesh too:  comfort, convenience, pride, insecurity, perfectionism.

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Ok, as a saying goes you can only fight the enemies you know. So, let me just declare:

I am imperfect, however, I am beautiful in the eyes of my GOD, the GOD of gods.

I am wonderfully and fearfully made, but, I am nothing without Christ.

I work on my salvation as a daughter of the One True King, for my Father is perfect and holy, so, I must be perfect and holy.

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Really, without love, everything is useless. If you think you really know the meaning of love, you must/should know that if  you feel any bitterness or hatred or indifference it is NOT love. 

Jesus is love. He feels no hatred or bitterness or indifference towards the people who crucified Him.

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So, if I stay silent for many days, I'm simply recharging my battery. 

(Even Jesus have to go to the mountain top to recharge and to clearly know His next step and direction.)

Zechariah 12:10
Joel 3